
Nothing like a good ball drop to start things off right!
Or, as my good buddy, Phil Rickaby likes to call it, the”Annual New Year Navel Gaze”.
I’ll be frank. In a lot of ways, my 2011 really sucked. Mostly in all those deeply personal ways one tries to avoid talking about online, because, as my Mum says, it is not the place for “airing your dirty laundry”. In other ways though, it was all kinds of good. I finally Fringed. I got to see dead saints on the big screen, at a film festival. I made a lot of progress on some little pet projects of mine…for instance, I’m finally learning to dance en pointe. I auditioned a lot more…although, in the majority of cases, for things that were absolutely not worth bothering to audition for. I have some great material to audition with, for the first time in ages. And yet…and yet. Still so much I want to get accomplished.
So, in the spirit of those who so often start the New Year off with resolutions, I’m setting myself some goals for 2012. Not resolutions. I’ve only ever had one resolution*, and it took me so long to finally accomplish it that i refuse to set another. I’m taking a bit of inspiration from this quote, which i do not know the originator of: “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”. And here we go:
Kelly’s Little List of Big Goals For 2012
1) Stop trying to make things perfect. The most nebulous of the bunch, but also the one most likely to have a huge effect on my life. If I have one stumbling block as a person, and a performer, it’s the whole notion of doing things perfectly. It’s as paralyzing as it is impossible…I could be doing things that are amazing, but the idea of not being “perfect” can sometimes hold me back from even getting started! So I’m going to work on learning a way of getting things done as opposed to getting things perfect.
2) Get an Agent. Like, seriously. I need one. I do a lot of work to get myself out there, but I need to have a good agent in my corner if I want to have any hope of auditioning for more professional projects. You know, the sort that occasionally give you a paycheque. And on that note:
3) Get paid for performing. Yes, there’s more to life than the almighty dollar. And I’m still happy to work on anything that feels truly worthwhile. I don’t measure success by how much money I make…but I would like to continue to eat and pay my rent whilst being an actor. I’m just sayin’.
4) Read more plays, see more shows. This also includes listening to more scores. No one ever suffered any harm through broadening their horizons. Although given the current state of my finances (see goal 3, above), seeing more theatre may have to involve some awfully sneaky work on my part. Or flirting egregiously with various people. Love will find a way, as they say…and I do love theatre.
5) Some random and more specific professional goals. The little things that help fill an actor’s tool kit…perfect and polish my (only barely passable at the moment) British accent, revisit my Brooklyn (it’s been a while and I’m rusty), and learn at least one other dialect this year. Take a good Shakespeare class, because it has been TOO long. Visit New York and see old friends there…also do some auditioning, and take some dance classes. Learn an aria (and yes, in a language that is not english). Ask other people for help, and in turn: Help someone else to attain a professional goal.
I hope everyone has a happy and successful and truly joyful new year. May all your goals be attained and wishes come to pass. Oh! I almost forgot:
6) Blog more. No, I mean it! I’ll make a real effort to suck less at remembering to blog.
*I finally stoppped biting my fingernails in 2011…which is the same thing I have resolved to do every year since I was about 14. Aren’t you proud of me, interweb?